- One last look at Pam in her right mind. 2010 she plans to let it all go!
So, as you can probably guess, I’ve almost lost it. I mean… I’ve not pulled out all my hair or anything. I just can’t stand having things so out of my control. Yes, I”m a control freak. But, in my defence, I’m a control freak that is forced out of my comfort zone- all the time . I do this by being married to a spontaneous, carefree, bordering on irresponsible man. ( I love you honey) Really I’m okay not decorating because we “might” go out-of-town to my sisters for Christmas. AHHHHHH, okay I’m lying. But this doesn’t even begin to explain the massive expanse of things out of my control this year.
I have a major bone to pick with the fine people in charge of getting things over the border (US/CAN) …of course, their just doing their jobs…I’ve been waiting on a certain fabric (Cool Treats) to arrive for 2 weeks. That may be normal BUT I had a swatch of this fabric at the Festival of Crafts and took orders for aprons made out of this fabric thinking, “I’ll surely have it by the beginning of December” and I should have. I made no promises, BUT the United States had to have Thanksgiving (which is fine, I love thanksgiving) and customs likely believes I’m smuggling ice-cream fairies, UPS is officially on “Island time”??? regardless, my point is…I have no control over this and it’s driving me batty.
I am trying to enjoy the season no matter what comes tumbling off my plate of stuff that SHOULDA COULDA been done 
I know once I do everything humanly possible I’ll have to resign myself to Gods control over things. Really I don’t know why I don’t give up sooner. Maybe that will be my new years resolution?? To give up!!! I heard it said once, “If your ship capsizes, pray for rescue but still swim for the shore”. I think I need to rely more on my prayer than my ability to swim.
I’ll catch you in 2010….I’m sure everything will work out fine. And if not, be sure to bring sweets when you come visit me in my padded cell!!
Pam.
